"A man should not leave this earth with unfinished business.He should live each day as if it was a pre-flight check.
He should ask each morning, am I prepared to lift-off? "
--Diane Frolov and Andrew Schneider
I am in Heaven and sitting on God' lap.I cries and my heart has been broken.
I am saying something to my Mommy and Papa.I was so scared, I began screaming, but you were unable to help me as It wasn't in your hand and Monster was pulling me and was saying lets go to the god now, your time is over and instead of your Mommy lap, you would in the God's lap. I was saying , I have always wanted to be your good boy.I don't quite understand what has happened. I requested to Monster saying that, I am started just realizing my existence. I was in a dark, yet comfortable place. I saw, I had fingers and toes and keep walking towards Monster , It looks he is pulling me and I was pretty far from my home but, was not ready to leave my surroundings. I spent most of my time thinking,sleeping or working .
Sometimes I was crying with you. I was sad, and hoped I would be better soon. I wondered why I cried so much. I was thinking I hurt someone and now, I have to go to God' lap and the Mommy and Papa cried almost all of the day as I was leaving them forever.
The monster got closer and closer as I was screaming and screaming, "Mommy, Mommy, help me please; Mommy, help me."
Complete terror is all I felt. I screamed and screamed until I thought I couldn't anymore.Then the monster started ripping my arm off. It hurt so bad; the pain I can never explain. It didn't stop. Oh, how I begged it to stop. I screamed in horror as it ripped my leg off.
Though I was in such complete pain, I was dying. I knew I would never see your face or hear you say how much you love me.
I said,I wanted to make all your tears go away. I had so many plans to make you happy. Now I couldn't; all my dreams were shattered. Though I was in utter pain and horror, I felt the pain of my heart breaking, above all.
I wanted more than anything to be your son.No use now, for I was dying a painful death.
I wanted to tell you that I love you before I was gone and soon, I no longer had the breath to say them; I was dead. I felt myself rising. I was being carried by a huge angel/Monster into a big beautiful place. I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone. The Monster took me to God and set me on own lap. He said, He loved me and then I was saying to god that I wanted to live. I had the will, but I couldn't; the monster was too powerful. It sucked my arm and legs off and finally got all of me. It was impossible to live. I was saying to God that....I just wanted you to know why ....I didn't want to die.
...................then tring tring tring......ringing something..................................
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Suddenly,there is as sound of tring tring......tring.... riniging a bell and there was milkman at the door of house and my eye opened...Ahh, thank god.....I am not in God's lap but, I was on my bed and was sleeping and I was DREAMING A DEATH .For a moment, I couldn't believe that it's true that I am alive but yes,yes ...I am alive and give me a feeling like I have just returned from mouth of death .This dream really was painiful,dreadful and frightning and in dream I yelled,cried and disconteneted.
This dream was a lesson for me that all of our possessions, relationships, even our talents and skills are all temporary. So how can our body be anything more? Philosper says being afraid of death is like being afraid to give up an old and worn-out garment and our body is also like that BUT, all in all in the dream, I have seen very closely to leave behind our beloved and and really it was the FEAR OF DEATH.
